Monday, March 31, 2008 @ 1:44 AM
there is nothing as constant and forever in this life..everything just change and change and change...this moment you are smiling and that you are crying...too much things bottled up...make heart feel so weak and tired...no idea how much more can it still keep up...growing up will only increase pressure...increase trouble...increase the feeling of loneliness..really wanted to scold it out but cant..keep in heart make it feel so shity..feel like doing something to feel that you are alive..feel the warmth through your heart...just a year has pass and everything has changed...feeling...friends...love...family...passion...hobbies and etc...so many..but so what...will anyone give a damn? well i assume no...no one...time goes by and my heart has not changed only...still feeling so hurt..tired...weak...and stress...felt like it is going to burst anytime anywhere...wanted to cry it out but realise the tears are all dried up...wanted to shout it out but realise the throat are hurt...someone once told me that tears are so precious...because it is just like a diamond..a crystal...but to me..tears carry all feelings...it is just worthless...feel so numb to everything..bother so much will only make myself sad and hurt...knowing the truth behind everything will just make things so complicated...so..keep it deep into heart so no one else can see and touch...so again..wont get hurt even deeper...+[[ what am i to u all? just a nobody? a passer by?? ]]+