Wednesday, July 16, 2008 @ 10:53 PM
everything my fault! now are u happy enough?! Simply just hate it! i am not emotionless! i am not a robot! i am not someone with no feeling or no life! i know u wont give a shit to this anyway..anyway..today rj was about symbol which describe our lifes and explain the reason. And since my group have focus on colour symbol, then i do one abt it.. The colour i choose is gray..dull..emptyness..loss..create expectations...unsettling. This is so true..my life now is so unsettling..i have no idea what lies ahead...what don't..nothing seems to cheer me up..i laugh..but there is tears in my eyes...i forced myself to hold back everything..and refrain myself from hurting anyone..but in the end..i get hurt..badly..wad hurt me most is i thot you know me well enough...but i realise..is only my wishful thinking..but i am still lucky..at least..when i am alone in the dark..there is still someone else..holding on to the light..leading me out of it..at least..i know..there is someone else who care..i have been wandering if i should put this post, but in the end, i choose to put..because..this is MY journal..and i can write anything..and actually..i dun feel anyth abt it..but..after seeing someth..it make me..feel so hurt..and disappointed..of myself..fer being such a failure..fer being so useless and emo..p.s: fer those who worry ( if there is...) pls dun!! cos..i will be fine...i just need to vent out alittle thing BUT pls..i wont get emo the whole day over this kaes..